hey darlin', you paint a pretty picture.

refurbishing.

2009-04-14T07:29:00.000-07:00

This was the highlight of my day. Seriously.

Without my friends and msn conversations, I live a boring life.

rollercoaster.

2009-02-17T04:07:00.000-08:00

Why do i still get butterflies?

This feeling is a bitch.

torpe song - mymp.

2009-01-30T05:00:00.000-08:00

Pretty much my favourite MYMP song. Posted it here because it relates to me. (No i'm not the 'Torpe' LOL)

Torpe Song by MYMP

Kung 'di ngayon kailan pa

Bukas o makalawa

Baka pa makawala pa

Naiparating mo na ba

Naihayag mo na ba

Nakapagtapat ka na ba, ano ba?

*'Di n'ya malalaman ('Di ko malalaman)

'Di mahuhulaan damdamin mo

Kung 'di sasabihin (Sabihin mo na)

Kaya nga't sabihin mo na

**Maypa-tula-tula pa

'Di naman nya nabasa

Baka pa matulala ka

'Pag may ibang pumorma

Mauunahan ka pa

Baka magmukha kang tanga, diba!

repeat*

Sige na, lakad na, sugod na, baka mawala pa

Kayang-kaya mo yan

Sige na, lakad na, sugod na, kapal mukha na

Kayang-kaya mo yan

repeat ** &*

Sige na, lakad na, sugod na, baka mawala pa

Kayang-kaya mo yan

Sige na, lakad na, sugod na, kapal mukha na

Kayang-kaya mo yan

Sige na, lakad na, sugod na, baka mawala pa

Kayang-kaya mo yan

Sige na, lakad na, sugod na, baka sagutin ka

Sana nga, oh, sana, kayang-kaya mo 'yan

English translation

(If you don't understand Tagalog ;D)

If not now, then when?

Tomorrow or the day after?

You just might lose your chance.

Have you conveyed your message?

Have you told her yet?

Did you confront her yet?

*She would never know (I would never know)

She can't guess what your true feelings are

If you won't tell her (Just tell me now)

So why don't you tell her now

**You keep on writing love poems

But she never even read them

You just might end up insane

If someone else courts her

He'll get ahead of you

You might end up looking like a fool, right?

repeat *

Go ahead, court her, go for it, you might lose your chance

You can do it

Go ahead, court her, go for it, be bold enough

You can do it, you can do it

repeat ** & *

Go ahead, court her, go for it, you might lose your chance

You can do it

Go ahead, court her, go for it, be bold enough

You can do it, you can do it

Go ahead, court her, go for it, you might lose your chance

You can do it

Go ahead, court her, go for it, she might say yes

Oh how I wish she'd say yes... I know you can do it.

coincidential?

2009-01-28T02:02:00.001-08:00

The Bottom Line
New beginnings are important, but don't lose your appreciation for old connections.
In Detail
Embarking on new beginnings is always important, but make sure that you aren't losing appreciation for your old connections. Every step you have taken in the past has led you to where you are today -- and where you are today prepares you for getting you where you are meant to go. So make time for old friends in between hanging out with new friends. Send a thank you note to that teacher or mentor who helped you. Realize that your life is not just about the future.

That was my horoscope for today. I don't really believe in those stuff, but today was my first day in Year 11. I promised myself to study more and do all my homework, although I was still online in msn. But I didn't reply to any of my messages cause I was busy studying.

Odd.

Really odd.

miserable at best - mayday parade.

2009-01-14T03:35:00.000-08:00

I guess that I can live without you, but without you I'll be miserable at best.

Such a beautiful song. The music video was as beautiful as i expected. Mayday Parade has certainly outdone themselves.

Another year to be tucked away in my memory box.

2009-01-01T20:22:00.000-08:00

'09 is finally here! So long '08, it's been nice of you to stay around.

It has been a hard and bumpy year, full of ups and A LOT of downs, but in the end, I guess it was all worth it. A lot of stuff had happened: mainly School Certificate. Got Band 6 for Visual Arts and Science, and Band 5 for everything else, except Maths in which i got a Band 4. Oh well, I'm still pretty proud of my marks.

This year, I also grew up quite a bit, especially from what had happened in 2007. Now, I truly believe what everyone says: You will always learn from your hardships in life. Even though it was a dark time for me, I now learnt that I need to be more confident and to stop depending on others. It also taught me how to cope during hard times, and to be more responsible and focus more on my studies, as my marks drooped down a bit since that dark time.

Well, other than that, there had been some good times, with family and friends. 2008 was also the year I discovered my hidden passion and talent: photography. In the beginning of the year, i needed to a hobby to have a form of escape from reality, and of course to make my free time more useful. So I picked up my family's camera and started to take random photos of anything. Little did I know that photography runs in my blood. My mum had a knack of photography when she was young, and wanted to become a Photojournalist. But since she married early, she did not have a chance to do so. Now, I've been able to live her dream. I hope that this year, I could improve my skills even more.

One thing I'm looking forward too in '09 is Year 11. I'm finally going to do the subjects that I really want! English Advance, Maths Extension 1, Visual Arts, Physics, Design and Technology and Photography. So long unwanted subjects, *cough*Geo*cough*

Overall, It had been such a year, but I'm glad '08 is over. I can't wait until what this year will hold for me ;D

Bring it on '09!

Between you and i, he could never compare to you.

2008-12-30T03:16:00.000-08:00

The summer breeze cooled the atmosphere as a group of friends all sat down on a small checkered blanket in a small park. Nearby, the afternoon traffic filled the main street that strings along the train station. On the other side, a train carrying business men, students and mothers with their prams storms past. Even though being in the midst of all these nosiy madness, they felt relaxed and euphoric while having their rare picnic in the suburban park.

While girls sat down and chatted, the guys tossed a frisbee around, which hit a car and set off its alarm. One of the girls looked down in her arms and found herself hugging her electronic elmo plushie. She squeezed its stomach, and it sang 'Elmo loves you so so much!'. She chuckled as she lightly threw the plushie across the blanket.

She then realised, that there was a shadow which came from behind her. Before she could react and turn around, white long-sleeved arms wrapped around her. Warmth overwhelmed her as he laid his head on her shoulders. She snuck a glance to her right and noticed that the head was wearing a white beanie. From that alone, she did not have to turn around to know who it was. She laid back and sighed happily as they stayed in that position for a long time.

The sky turned into bright red, as the sunset appeared in the sky. Everyone started to pack up and leave for the day. The two however still stayed in that position until the sky turned into dusk. The girl opened her eyes and realised that everyone was gone but him. She was about to stand when the guy gained consciousness and hugged her tightly. She gave up and sighed, 'I'll miss this'.

The embrace suddenly went stiff, as he answered 'What do you mean?'. He let go from the embrace and stood up. Puzzled, the girl turned around to look up at him. She realised it was a mistake doing so.

She was horrified as the weirded, puzzled face looked down at her. But it wasn't the expression that shocked her, but the actual face. It wasn't the face she was thinking about when it hugged her. No, it was a completely different person. He wasn't wearing the beanie anymore, nor the white long sleeves that she loved so much. Instead, a checkered shirt replaced it, along with thick-rimmed glasses and short gelled hair.

Her friend raised his eyebrows in worry and confusion, 'Are you okay?'

She just stared at him in reply, as the sky behind him turned darker, marking the end of twilight. Picking up the blanket, she stood up and walked away, leaving him behind in the park.

It wasn't him that hugged her.

It was never him at all.

He would never have an intention to do such a thing.

& yet, she still wishes that he would.

She had dreamt it all along.

Why can't she move on?

I hate having vivid dreams. I should really stop thinking before I sleep.

summer breeze.

2008-12-26T04:06:00.000-08:00

Gotta love the beach. Just came back from my summer/christmas holiday to Port Stephens & Nelsons Bay.

Two days of: Building sandcastles. Riding rapid waves with body boards. Almost getting drowned (ROFL!) Pigging out with Favourites chocolates and chips. Telling ghost stories at 11 at night and almost unable to sleep after. Taking luvos and of every scenery we encounter.

& the best thing out of it all: Spending every second of it with my family and friends.

I wouldn't change any second of it.

Well except for the moment when all my photos in my camera accidentally got deleted, and only a few photos were recovered.

Darn it.

Oh well, even though it was only 2 days, it was the best summer holiday anyone can ask for.

brilliant lies - new years day.

2008-12-21T21:03:00.000-08:00

I'm starting to sleep a little easier now, now that I'm over this,
And I've made up my mind to never fall in love again.
With someone like you, someone so confused,
I just wish I would have realized that a long time before I had.

Came across with this song again today. Haven't listened to it for yonks. Felt that it fits the overall feeling I'm having. Cliche, isn't it?

always attract - you me at six

2008-12-19T02:07:00.000-08:00

This song is just wow. I decided to post it here because this song relates to me so much. The lyrical composition is so amazing, and with Josh Francheschi and her sister's beautiful voices, this is one of my favourite songs from YM@6's new album, Take Off Your Colours. The song can be listened in my playlist, which is at the bottom of this page.

If it hurts this much,
then it much be love.
And its a lottery,
I can't wait to draw your name.
Oh i'm trying to get to you,
but time isn't on my side.
The truths the worst i could do,
and i guess that i have lied.

Keeping me awake,
it's been like this now for days.
My heart is out at sea,
My head all over the place.
I'm loosing sense of time,
and everything tastes the same.
I'll be home in a day,
I fear thats a month to late.

That night i slept,
on your side of the bed so,
it was ready when you got home.
We're like noughts and crosses in that
opposites always attract.

You've taken me to the top,
and let me fall back south.
You've had me at the top of the pile,
and then had me kissing the ground.
We've heard and seen it all,
no ones talked us out.
The problems that have come
haven't yet torn us down.

Am I keeping you awake, if I am then just say,
You can make your own decisions; you can make your own mistakes.
I'll live and let die all the promises you made,
but if you lie another time, it'll be a lie thats to late.

You always have your way,
for now it to soon for you to say.
We will be always always.

A day to remember # 8567: Me and Helen @ Vinnies.

2008-12-18T02:32:00.000-08:00

A Day To Remember: Me and Helen @ Vinnies.

18th December 08. Me and Helen walked around Ware street like bored kids, carrying our ice mocha and mango smoothie. We didn't want to go back to school to bludge but we didn't want to go home either. We went through Asian shops and looked at the toys section (ROFL!) Gotta love that little fishing game thingo ;D

Whilst walking, Helen saw a Vinnies outlet shop and we decided to go inside. We basically went crazy there ;D We're not afraid to admit it: we love op-shops! We found awesome vintage toys and stuffed animals (Happy Tree Friends!)

We then looked at the bags, and that's where I found my treasure. Finally, after months and months of searching, I finally found it. The bright yellow and red material was calling out for me. I knew I had to buy it, whether I was broke or not. So I took the World Youth Day bag and hugged it with all my might ;D You see, I didn't sign up during WYD, therefore I never got the freebies :(

After I literally squealed for joy, we walked over to the book shelves and looked at the secondhand books. I bought some of my books and novels from op-shops. Come on, its really cheap (2-4 bucks ? :O) and in really good condition. Who wouldn't want that?!

Anyway, we looked at the bottom shelf and saw some HSC guide books. We flittered through them and found some good Mathematics HSC guides. That was where we found Helen's treasure: a thick Biology guide book. It had a few marks and notes written on it, but it was still in good condition and really informative and useful. We looked at the price tag; it was only 6 bucks!

After we looked around the store and picked out the stuff we wanted to buy, that was when I dropped the bombshell. Literally.

I dropped my ice mocha and it splashed all over the floor and near the books.

Whoops D:

Luckily, the books didn't get wet; it only had little spills on the covers. After I panicked for a minute, we then told the girl at the counter who, surprisingly, wasn't angry. She went to pick out a mop and cleaned it up. We then paid for our stuff and went out of the store before I do something clumsy again.

Despite the fact that I made a mess out of ourselves, we still walked out of the store happily, carrying our treasures. It may had been simple, but it was certainly a day to remember :P.

Oh yeah, I bought my bag for 6 bucks while Helen got a 50% percent off from her book, so she only paid $3! O:

Silence is golden, but i think it's gonna kill me now.

2008-12-07T04:31:00.000-08:00

I hate silence.

Hate the sound of it.

Hate the meaning behind it.

Hate the awkwardness behind it.

Hate the tension inside it.

It caused me to lose the person who meant the most to me.

That's why I love my music. Without it, i think i would've gone insane ages ago.

i got my plans to live forever in a dream.

2008-12-03T02:56:00.000-08:00

New Moon.

Sometimes i feel like i'm living in my own New Moon story.

With me as Bella & having my own Edward Cullen and Jacob Black.

.. & somehow i can't choose between both.

More weirdly enough, some of the events that happen in the book coincides with my life.

.. I should really stop reading that book over and over again.

　Get out of my head you imbecile!